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When I started this site a couple months ago, I vowed to be as transparent as the Lord led me to be, and as honest and open as I felt I had the strength to be. In honor of that vow, today I am going to share with you my broken heart… In June 2002, my husband and I reconciled. “Old things were passed away” for the most part, and we were reveling in the new God had provided. Caught in the middle of the restoration was our then four-year-old son. He had suffered the most through our separation and ugly divorce, and he continued to suffer through our reconciliation.
Our son could not understand why Daddy was back in our lives, but not truly a part of our life. Because of my husband’s military duties, he spent the next two years between training and deployments, so he did not reside with us at all during that time. Our son was seven years old when Daddy first moved back in with us, even though we had been remarried for well over two years at that point. And with the day-to-day business of life and our own personal brand of chaos, my husband and our son really never built the right kind of relationship as father and son. The issue has always been there, but almost swept under the rug as we went through life.
Now that we have a tween, full of attitude, frustration, and challenges, the issue is too big to fit under that rug anymore. The not necessarily broken, but not yet mended relationship between father and son is now completely dysfunctional – with enough anger and blame to go around. I have a front row seat to the conflict and resentment on nearly a daily basis. Throw Hubby’s PTSD issues into the mix, and we have quite a mess! And my heart breaks…
I know that God is capable of healing their relationship, just as He healed our marriage. Please pray with me to that end! And please pray for wisdom for me as I am caught in the middle!
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I am living proof of how the Lord can take a broken life and turn it into something beautiful. Although I am still very far from perfection, I am still a work of His art. My heart's prayer is that "Brokenness into Beauty" will be a source of inspiration and encouragement to all! There is hope, and there is healing on the horizon.
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Oh my sweet Mandy, I can’t imagine the heartbreak that you are going through… being stuck in the middle of two people you love. I’m praying for you! Hugs! I’ll cry with ya when we meet up… I know that’s what I would need! (I got tears just from reading that.)
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@Chele, Thanks, Chele. Today has been pretty rough, and full of tears… I appreciate your prayers!!
{{HUGS}} Love ya Mandy! We have dealt with this to some degree and I struggle with my MamaBear coming out, yet trying to help my husband. It’s a horrible place to be…you get stuck in the middle. I’ll pray for you while I’m praying for my situation between my husband and my oldest. (That means LOTS of prayers for you, girl!)
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I am hoping this would help. But even without dramatic events such as yours, the teenagers are still very difficult to deal with. So part of it is just a phase and the other can be other influencing factors such as what you guys have gone through. Just be patient and be positive.
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Thank you, Amanda, for your kind words and input! I appreciate them so much!
Hope to see you around here again soon!